Meditations for time spent off

Today I briefly went back to the chat to find that I wasn't entirely the problem. That thing has maybe 20 people in it and travels at ludicrous speed. Two or three conversations at once, and I have nothing to add to any of them--or if I do, not at the ninja speeds of others.

It's interesting that I would assume things are entirely my fault. Then again, it's empowering to think so. If I'm doing something wrong, I have the power to do something about it. It's positive in a way. If it's other people, though, or just life in general, then things get complicated.

I will probably leave that place until Tuesday or so. I'm just not okay with it yet.